Thowing it in the Muck

Have you ever just thrown it away? That very thing you were after? I did it the other day and didn't realize it until the very second that is was too late. I had thrown the opportunity away, given it away to someone else and I desperately needed that opportunity to go my way. I suppose you could look at situations like that as the opportunity was in fact NOT what you were hoping for and missed but the lesson that invariably follows such a "muck up".

Ugh.........the damn lessons............

I get so focused on one way, one route, one plan that when a golden opportunity presents itself, I miss it. You know, the forest and the trees.....

I don't see the end result ( a winning one at that) as valid and I throw it away. Or, worse, I don't see the winning result the way I planned it and miss that it actually was right anyway, throwing it away in embarrassment that I must not know what I'm doing. I do this often in my work, my relationships, my finances, at the table. I so often get the gist of the idiom wrong: "...play your cards right and you'll get (_X_)"; my brain will go ahead and interpret it as '...play the RIGHT cards and you'll get (_x_).'

I have got to get my head out of this box.......... I hope this trip to the mountains will give me the peace, the quiet, the space to see the trees and remember I am but a small atom in this universe and things happen, rivers roll and life goes on. I am not going to stop it all with a great plan or limited point of view. Something I read tonight helped to reminded me not to be so proud, embarrased and so unlike my self... This I need... Thank you....